transition period.

the word transition is something that i have seen and been hearing a lot from friends and family lately. I feel like I am in this hardcore transition period. I have no idea what I am going to do now that I am officially a college graduate, but it doesn't matter. I can do anything. I know this is a time where things are going to change and where I am going to explore and experience God in some new ways that are going to be challenging yet great. I know that the world is at my fingertips, I just need to dive in and see where this crazy journey takes me. I know these things in my head, but it is hard to commit to letting go of that control. Before I left for Romania I had a plan. A big plan. It was going to be perfect, I knew where I would work and how much money I would save and when I would be able to come home. Then God shut that door, it didn't feel right and it was hard to withdraw from that decision, but it meant that God had something bigger in mind. So then I started another plan. Once again I knew where I was going to live and sort of what I would be doing. And if that plan followed through I could be close to my friends and close to the community that I have been a part of for the last four years. But once again that fell through. Since I got home I have been trying to figure things out, but it seems like every time I get close to a plan, something goes wrong and it falls through. Then a friend told me a about a job that she has. It would require me stepping out of my plans and into something really unknown. It is that dive, that step, that leap that everyone talks about but no one really knows how to do it. I have not been really worried about this job situation because I know that God has something big planned for me, and if this works out then great, but if it doesn't then God has something better.

People prepare you your whole life for what the next step is. In preschool the next step is elementary, in elementary the next step is middle school, in middle school the next step is high school, after high school the next step is college. You know what to expect with these things. You know there will be homework involved and there will be classes and teachers and it is predictable. And even though college is supposed to prepare you for the rest of your life, it is hard for them to prepare you to do something other than go to school which is what you have done for the last 16-20 years of your life. It is hard to know what it is like until you get to that place where "life" or "the real world" are staring you right in the face and you realize you have no idea what to do.

So this is my transition period. I need to figure out what I am going to do in this middle time. I know what I want to do... but there are a few factors contributing to my not being able to do that right away. So until that time... what do I do?

I have no clue. But I am okay with that... or getting more comfortable with it everyday I should say. God's got this.

I am transitioning into the rest of my life. Weird.

Now it's time to change the world... let's do this.