Thoughts on the end of our first camp.

So today was amazing.

I wish every day could be like today, not for me, but for the girls.
We had a spa day, we pampered the twelve girls and made them feel like princesses. We did hair, makeup, nails, facials (including cucumbers), and pedicures. I did a foot scrub and foot massage for the girls. Even though some were ticklish, they all loved it.

We had a tea party, complete with sailboat sandwich 4ths, fruit salad, vegetables, and scones.

After our tea party, the girls put on their new clothes and had a fashion runway show for the team. They were so beautiful, and so precious. Then it was time for them to leave. I wish this was the part that didn't have to happen.

They were already packed up and it was like as soon as the fashion show was over, they were gone. All of those beautiful young women were gone. And I was left wondering these questions for the rest of the day... Did I say enough? Did I do enough? Did I love enough? Did I hold that hug just a little longer? Did I try to understand a little bit more? Was I patient enough? Was I strong enough? At the end of the day, did those girls know they were loved and beautiful and worth so much?

My answer is no, I didn't, I couldn't, I was not enough. But God was. When I was exhausted, God gave me the strength to push a little longer, stay up a little later, understand a little better, hold them a little longer, love them much more than I ever could myself.

Tonight my heart is breaking for these precious ones. My heart just hurts, aches for them. I love them with every fiber of my being... That is all I can do.